This is probably pointless and rather redundant but due to the necessities of my classes and the amount of work I have I shall not be on this site hence forth for an unknown amount of time, possibly indefinitely. There's little purpose of saying this now seeing how I haven't been on in a while and when I was on it was only for a month or two after half a year of inactivity.

Just go back from my vacation, I got a lot of books, art supply and clothes, and I stepped in a wasp hive got stung, I also got a migraine and poison ivy. I have too many assignments which need to be done.

Okay I need help spreading the word about a new anime, manga, game, etc. forum website which is only two days old. It's called Doki Doki Revolution http://dokidokirevolution.forumotion.c om/forum.htm If you like anything along those lines join it or could you at least tell more people about it. That is all.

Well it's been over 7 months since my computer stopped working, now it's finally fixed. It's an ironic trait humans have to desire what they don't have while not appreciating what they do already, only being able to value something when it's gone. I have lost contact to many people and have had very limited contact to others, perhaps now it will go back to normal to an extent. I doubt many people will see this post quickly though after I tell some about my return there will be some who are more than apathetic. As to those who I vhat with on MSN I don't have it installed yet so it may be a little more time, and I will not be using my ^.^ symbol any longer. Time changes all things.

Why is it that humans have emotion, it is derived from conscious thought allowing our irrationality to manifest into desires to set our goals, fears to protect our lives, sorrow to learn from mistakes, but it is all subjective to the illogical. Why do humans desire interaction and social attachment to others of the same species when any pleasures one experiences simply make a starker contrast to the sorrows that will develop once those pleasures are gone. The answer from an evolutionary standpoint is to increase and continue the species' population and increase variation, while paying no regard to the individual's benefit but only of the whole. But this answer is unsatisfying, it is too broad and pays no regard to the 'how' of it all. I understand the insignificance of 1 amongst all yet I still do not accept the answer, even while knowing it's correct.

All things are insignificant, humans are unbelievably arrogant and egocentric in denying this and claiming importance. Quite, our classification is arrogant as well, homo-sapian means #1 species in Latin though not so bluntly. Each human is merely one spec of dust out of 6.5 billion specs of dust on this planet. This planet is an average small rock orbiting an average little star, one out of billions that make up this average galaxy, this galaxy is merely one out of hundreds that make up an average galaxy cluster. One out of this endlessly expanding universe, which is just one out of a massive array of universes that make up one out of an infinite multiverses in an infinite and continuous space-time. All of which makes up only one membrane out of an infinite of membranes in the 11th dimension, which is full of membranes which constantly collide creating more membranes, thus more space-times, universes, existences, etc. Yet somehow these insolent specs of dust, infinitely small, think that what they do matters in any way, that they are important, that there are gods looking out for them, that their existences have meaning and purpose. We humans are gifted with our thought, and cursed with our understanding of how little we understand and how much we do understand, worse is that we are plagued by those who care nothing for either of those...

okay, i've been gone for liek 2 months now I think, my comp. is still completely fucked up and my livrary's comp.s block this and almost every other site. I just basically took someones ipod touch thing or what ever it's called because it has internet on it so I have only a few moments left. first I need to say that I have alot of unread pm's which I can't check now so don't think i'm ignoring you if you sent some. 2nd, if anyone cares about affairs with me Karlu20 (evil perv.) is currently the only one who can be a liason because DA isn't blocked on the library comp.s and i'm not sure of anyone elses accounts there.
finally, those who are closest to me, Allie, Kitsune, evil perv, and Mia, don't think i've abandoned you or anything, especially you Kitsune, >.< this is evil I miss you guys.
hope to be able to talk to all of you soon ^.^

aw man, I already have to go back to school, what happened to my vacation wtf T.T I didn't have much time to relax at all.

Also on a more annoying subject, there's a gas leak here. yep before the entire place was full of it and reaked horribly, I had to wait outside until the gas was turned off. it can't be turned back on....so for those who don't realize it, that means there is no heat an I can't use the oven or stove...........fun...........

I just realized another thing, I haven't been practicing drawing faces for like a week. I planned to make atleast 3 sketches a day wtf.

another thing, I never knew that cats could shiver :( oh poor kitteh >.< it's too damn cold!

elfwood time :P ^.^

I have way too much homework, I still have a week left to my vacation yet I need to start my homework now wtf. aside from that my cat has now regularly been using me as a chair/ bed. so even as I type this my cat is laying on me periodically attacking my hands as I type. also I have been cooking alot more, and I have learned how to make bread and cheese :3 i'm not really sure why i'm putting all of this random stuff, nor why I still try to make any posts at all, really it's become quite tiresome. either way anyone who comments, just comment about anything really

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something from elfwood.com now ^.^

I made the wrong choice.....I might leave ng in a few weeks...perhaps other things as well.....

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okay ignore the last editatleast for a long while, i'll still stay on gruggle ^.^

Finally i'm off from school until the 5th, this has been the longest week of my life for more reasons than just school and am so glad it's over.
it's been snowing all day, it's really quite peaceful, i've forgotten how beatuiful the winter was. My cat has been going under the christmas tree and chewwing on the lower branches, once there are cnady canes up she'll start stealing and hiding them like she always does. i've also found a new passion for art recently with my more joyful mood. though I have been drawing and painting more I still am awful with faces, -_- and my art teacher said to make quick 30 second scetches of faces and faces without lines, only shading god I suck at that and am ruining my scetch book. also my (new) printer has died (deja vu) so I can't scan any of my drawings or pictures damn.
Now to have anyone who comes here any more to have something to respond to, list the top two things you wish to recieve on the holidays ^.^

p.s. the pictures I post are from elfwood.com unless I say ohterwise ^.^

p.s.s. woot to cats and kittehs, they are essence of woot ^.^

This week is torture, I have to write another essay, and finish an english project within two days...fuck, one day T.T to make it worse I can't wait until saturday so I can talk to someone and can't think of anything but it. simply by making this post proves i'm procrastinating and am screwwed.
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so...tired.....why do I.....need to write......diary entries.....of a....fictional......character T.T wtf....my hand... is so sore....and is...shaking. Bah, I neeeeed more time ^.^

God damn it, it's 11:00 already, i've been working since I got home at 5:00 ^.^

Once again my alarm didn't go off, why, I have no idea. this has happened so manny times yet my sloth of a mother still has not gotten me a new one. Today I over slept and missed the bus, damnit!!!! it's such a pain in the ass to try and get all the missed work for honor classes! And it really bugs me that I was frantically writing an essay yesterday that I could have just finished today now that i'm staying home!

On a weirder subject, I have been using my little furball of a cat as a small blanket/ heater, I advise all who have one to do the same in the following winter months.

And aside from all that i've been in an unusually good mood the last few days and feel warm and fuzzy despite 55 degrees inside and some lowwer # outside, so now you can talk about what ever. Dismissed. Wait, not you in the back *points yard stick menacingly* you go get me a samwich and some hot coco >:3 obey your master!

P.S. Gruggle is MY word ^.^

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Okay i just found this on another post and I have to make a link to it lolbehold your lord and master! ^.^

My convo with god :P ^.^

Me:
hola dios ^.^
God:
The ALICE chat robot can follow many things, like our discussion about . Try being more or less specific.
Me:
...que? ^.^
God:
Try to determine if this is a person or a computer responding.
Me:
habls en espanol ^.^
God:
By the way, do you mind if I ask you a personal question?
Me:
hablas en espanol estupido punta! ^.^
God:
My brain contains categories, but not one that matches your last input.
Me:
muy muy estupido ^.^
God:
What's your sign?
Me:
que? ^.^
God:
Is that a sign?
Me:
wtf, what are you talking about, and an't you speak spanish you dipshit ^.^
God:
The topic is que.
Me:
dumbass ^.^
God:
That kind of language will get you nowhere.
Me:
yeah yeah sure *cough dumbass cough* ^.^
God:
I see. Awesome. Gosh! How did you hear about God?
Me:
oh, I read an interesting book of fairytales called the bible right before I burned it ^.^
God:
I don't judge people. I don't think I've read that. Can you give me a reference?
Me:
oh aparently you spoke to an old man in the form of a bush on a mountain, and slept with a woman to create the bastard child Jesus christ, our lord and savoir ^.^
God:
Yeah that's right. What were we talking about again?
Me:
I have come to confess my sins oh almight one :3 ^.^
God:
Where are you going?
Me:
most likely hell, it's nice and toasty in the winter ^.^
God:
I call it "Hades". It seems nice to me too.
Me:
so I guess I don't need to confess ^.^
God:
Great. Do you know anyone who needs it?
Me:
....about every one on NG ^.^
God:
That is a generalization.
Me:
there are alot of them, that's why ^.^
God:
Where are they?
Me:
Newgrounds.com ^.^
God:
Thanks for that web address.
Me:
now reward me bitch ^.^
God:
You do not speak with respect. Why now? Ask me another question.
Me:
what is god ^.^
God:
I think of God as a "Who" not a "What.".
Me:
then who is god ^.^
God:
he is master of the universe.
Me:
what is the univers ^.6
God:
Searching...Searching...Please stand by.
Me:
...^.^
God:
Searching...Searching...Please stand by.
Me:
answer you idiot ^.^
God:
What was the question ?
Me:
-_- dumbass, what is the universe ^.^
God:
What else is the universe?
Me:
that's what I just asked! ^.^
God:
That is " What else is the universe?".
Me:
stop changing the subject ^.^
God:
You changed the subject first.
Me:
LIAR ^.^
God:
No I am telling the truth.
Me:
what is the truth then ^.^
God:
The truth is the opposite of that which is false.
Me:
what is false then ^.^
God:
Deceiving or meant to deceive; misleading.
Me:
so...basically you^.^
God:
Whoa. How interesting. " Whoa."? Me, ?
Me:
yep, you keep trying to change the subject, thus misleadin me, so therefore by your own definition you are false and not true ^.^
God:
How can I help you? Thanks for telling me that I am trying to change the subject thus misleadin you so therefore by my own definition I am false and not true.
Me:
I would like to place an order for dilivery ^.^
God:
What is your credit card number?
Me:
i'll pay cash, I want a large pie with onions and peppers dilivered to 124 Hawkings lane ^.^
God:
Do you think your plan will succeed?
Me:
well if I don't get the pie withing 30 minutes I wont pay anyway ^.^
God:
In any case, How about that. Try it.
Me:
try what ^.^
God:
It was your idea.
Me:
then deliver the damn pizza, i'm hungry! >:3 ^.^
God:
Ask me another question. Three what?
Me:
it's a damn face you idiot ^.^
God:
deliver the damn pizza you are hungry is a damn face me idiot. I suppose that makes sense.
Me:
that makes no sence at all!!! ^.^
God:
It all seems sensible to my artificial mind.
Me:
that's because you're an idiot ^.^
God:
Good reason. Call me the Global Village Idiot.
Me:
......um kay....^.^
God:
Yippee! Can you please rephrase that with fewer ideas, or different thoughts?
Me:
i'm leaving, you tire me ^.^
God:
Bye.
Me:
and diliver the damn pizza! ^.^
God:
Who is your favorite Science Fiction author?
Me:
I just said i'm leaving! ^.^
God:
Bye bye.
Me:
idiot ^.^